I’m very sorry for my blog absence.
I’ve been a bit busy but also uninspired to write something down. I started many articles but they never made the cut.
I’m not really sure why I’m this uninspired. Lately I’ve started to feel self-centered. I’ve created an image of myself online which doesn’t fit the real me and this makes me uncertain.
There are people who advise me to start vlogging, but for me this form of documentation feels too narcistic. Even the small fashion videos I’ve uploaded before give me the same vibes.
I feel no urge of filming myself eating my food, giving my latest beauty tips or filming meet ups with friends. So, instead of embracing possibilities, I tend to reject them.
I do however, have the feeling that I could contribute with videos in some kind of way. I just don’t know how yet.
The discovery of the partly fakeness online also shocked me. I can be so naïve to think people getting their likes, followers, hypes, shares, comments organically. When I dove into the world of bots, I discovered that even the people I admire! (the ones that work with Chanel and Cartier) are faking it. I’ve discovered tools that show you the people who play follow-unfollow games. It turns out to be a very popular thing to do online… and they generate followers. As an online blogger you try not to get into quantity but into authenticity. But that’s hard things to resist when you see everybody passing you by.
Thankfully Instagram is shutting down some of these programs, but it did create an unrealistic standard.
It feels like I’m sailing in the wrong direction and have no idea how to go the correct way.
So I’m a bit stuck, hence my absence. I’m very curious what you think as a reader and what you would like to see… You can’t solely create yourself. It’s also the people around you that shape you into who you are.
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